Monica is in her office at the hospital, humming to herself, when Bobbie comes in
Bobbie: Hi, you're in a good mood !
Monica: Yes, I am, I am finished for today and now I'm going shopping
Bobbie: That sounds wonderful, I'm on call until tomorrow morning. So, what are you going to buy ?
Monica: Well, I'm planning a very special evening with Alan and I saw this sexy negligee that I'm thinking of buying for him
Bobbie: (laughs) I'm sure he will love that
Monica: (laughs) Uhmmm me too, I can't wait to see his reaction when he sees me in it
Bobbie: You two are amazing, you are like two teenagers, you can't take your hands off eachother
Monica: (giggles) I know
Bobbie: Have fun!
Monica: Thanks

In Alan's office:

Monica: Hi darling!
Alan: Hi honey!
Monica: I'm finished for today so I thought I'd go shopping.
Alan: Oh, what are you buying? Clothes?
Monica looks mysterious
Monica: Oh, I don't know, I just thought I'll look around and see if I find something nice.
Alan: (looks disappointed) Without me? You know how I love seeing you change clothes and getting undressed
Monica: (smiling) Oh Alan, You are hopeless
Alan: (teasingly) I know, but you love me anyway, don't you?
Monica: You know I do
He walks over to her and opens his arms and gives her a big hug
Monica: Oh, I just love having your big, strong arms around me
Alan buries his face in her hair
Alan: Mmmmm, this was just what I needed
He gives her a slow, loving kiss
Alan: I can't wait to get home
Monica: When will you be finished?
Alan: I still have a lot of paper work to do, but hopefully I will be home at 8
Monica: Good, I can't wait to have you all to myself tonight. I see you then, darling
She kisses his cheek
Alan: Oh Monica, I almost forgot. Would you like to do me a favor? I forgot to pick up a gift for a friend, his birthday is tomorrow. It is already wrapped so all you have to do is to pick it up.
Monica: Off course I will, no problem
Alan: Thanks darling, I just have been so busy today, I didn't have time to pick it up earlier and then I forgot about it
Monica: Ok, see you later then
Alan: See you later, have fun
Monica: (winks at him) I will, and I promise that you will have fun tonight

Monica hurries to the mall and to the shop where she saw the negligee earlier, she tries it on and it fits perfectly. She smiles to herself while imagining Alan's hands touching her when he takes the negligee off, just the thought of him makes her shiver with anticipation

Monica: (mumbles to herself) Be prepared big guy, because I'm gonna make love to you all night long.

It's just before closing time when she hurries to pick up Alan's present. Just when she has picked it up she hears a strange noise, she turns around just in time to see three men barging in to the store and starting screaming and shooting. She ducks down behind the counter, but notices that a person has been shot and is badly wounded. Being a doctor her instincts take over and she tries to help the man, not knowing that this was the man the terrorists were after. The terrorists tell her to stop, but she tells them that she is a doctor and she can't just watch him die. One of the men knocks her on the head with the pistol and pushes her aside.

Alan is still at the hospital when he gets a call that several ambulances are on it's way with victims from a terrorist attack at the mall. Alan is terrified, knowing that Monica was going there. He rushes down to meet the ambulance, Bobbie is already there. She runs to him
Bobbie: (crying) Oh my god, Alan, Monica has been hurt
Alan: (Screams) MONICA!! Oh No, not Monica, Where is she? Did she get shot?
Bobbie: No, she didn't get shot, but she got a nasty hit on the head and she is unconscious
Alan runs to the room where they took her, he gets all pale when he sees her, she is bleeding from the wound in her head and has lots of cut and bruises.
Tony sees him and tries to explain to him that it is not as bad as it looks and that she will be fine.
Alan: I'll take care of her
Tony: Alan…..
Alan: Don't try to argue, please
Tony: (reluctantly) OK

He leaves her in Alan's hands and he takes care of her and finishes with kissing her every bruise. He doesn't leave her side and waits for her to wake up.
The police gives Alan what Monica had with her. He finds the negligee, and when he holds it, he remembers the kiss they shared at his office earlier that day. He is devastated and blames himself for asking her do get that present. He starts to cry
Alan: Oh my god, this is my fault, if I hadn't asked you to pick up that present, this would never had happened.

Monica is unconscious for almost 3 days. Alan has been sleeping beside her, he has hardly eaten anything and doesn't want to leave her side. He is caressing her hair and telling her how much he love her
Alan: Come back Monica, come back to me darling……… I need you, I can't go on without you

Suddenly she starts to move and tries to open her eyes, she moans from the pain

Alan: Monica! Are you awake darling?
He caresses her forehead as she begins to wake up. She opens her eyes and tries to focus. She looks very confused.
Alan: Monica, try and speak to me, how do you feel?
Monica can hardly speak and tries to whisper something and Alan gives her some water
Monica: Where am I? What happened?
Alan: You are at the hospital, darling, you had an accident
Monica: Who are you? Are you a Doctor?
Alan looks shocked
Alan: What do you mean? I'm your husband Alan
Monica: (mumbles) I can't remember…..
Alan calms her and tries not to be worried
Alan: Shhhh, you had an concussion, try to get some sleep, you feel better soon
Monica falls asleep while Alan holds her hand, he is exhausted and finally falls asleep in his chair.

Monica wakes up 8 hours later and begins to stir. Alan wakes up.

Alan: Are you feeling better, darling?
Monica: Who are you?
Alan looks very worried
Alan: Don't you recognize me?
Monica: No, I can't remember anything, who am I?
Alan: You are my wife Monica, and I'm Alan. Don't worry , you will remember soon, you had a nasty bump on your head and you had a severe concussion. It's only natural that you are a bit confused.
Alan tries not to show how worried he is and calls for Tony. He talks to him outside the room.
Alan: She says she can't remember who she is and she doesn't recognize me.
Alan almost panics
Tony: Alan, calm down, you know that this is quite common in these cases
Alan: (takes a deep breath) Yeah, I know, you are right, it just scared me when she didn't recognize me
Tony: Now, you try and get something to eat while I examine Monica
Alan: I can't leave her
Tony: (leads him to the cafeteria) Oh yes you can, she is in good hands and I don't want two patients to look after and that is exactly what is going to happen if you don't eat
Alan: Ok,ok I'll try to eat something

While Alan is at the cafeteria, Gail shows up
Gail: Oh Alan, I came as soon as I heard. How is she?
Alan: Well, she is awake now and she has a lot of cuts and bruises, but nothing serious.
Gail sees that something else is worrying him and she puts his hand over his
Gail: Alan, I can see that there is something else you are worried about. What is it?
Alan: When she woke up she couldn't remember me and she said that she didn't know who she was and that she couldn't remember anything. Tony is examining her right now. Will you come with me and see if she remembers you?
Gail: Off course, I will

Tony has just finished examining Monica when they meet him outside her room. He looks a bit worried
Alan: What is it?
Tony: Well, it seems like the hit on her head caused amnesia. She doesn't seem to remember anything about who she is or what happened at the mall.
Alan: Oh my god. How long will it take before her memory is back.
Tony: I really don't know, it can take from a week up to a year before her memory is back and even then she may not be able to remember everything, there can still be certain things she will never be able to remember. I'm afraid that all we can do is to wait and see and not pressure her into remembering. Just take it easy with her and I'm sure her memory will slowly come back, but be prepared that it could take a while and in some cases the patients personality may change a bit before the memory is completely back. I'm not saying that it will happen with Monica, but in some cases it does. She will probably feel very insecure and afraid and it is very important that no one pressures her.
Alan: I will do my best, thank you Tony

Alan closes his eyes and tries to compose himself before going in to Monica's room again.
Gail talks to Monica alone first and presents herself to her and tells her to let her know if she needs anything or just want to talk. Alan then comes back in and he tells her about their family and their kids and about her being a doctor and everything she need to know before going home.
Monica doesn't say anything
Alan: Monica, are you ok?
Monica: I don't know. It's all so confusing, it is so much information to take in. I'm not sure I'm up to meet everyone. I can't believe I'm married and have children, how could I not remember something like that.
Alan tries to give her a hug to comfort her, but she backs away. He tries not to show how disappointed and hurt he is.
Alan: Just give it some time and your memory will soon come back
Monica looks like she doesn't really believe him
Alan: Try to get some rest now and I will be back soon

He leaves her alone and Monica falls to sleep again. She has to stay at the hospital for another week and Alan is there the whole time. Monica doesn't say much, she just listens to Alan while he shows her pictures of them together and with their children. She looks at the pictures but nothing seems familiar to her.

When they finally can go home, Monica feels very insecure and she doesn't say anything on the whole way home. Alan looks a bit worried but decides to let her deal with it her own way and to just be there and support her whenever she needs him.

When they open the door to the house, everyone is standing in the hallway waiting for them. Monica feels like running away when she sees all the strangers looking at her, Alan puts his hands on her shoulders and she tries to relax
Everyone introduces themselves to Monica and welcomes her home. Monica looks around in amazement
Monica: Wow, what a house, do I really live here?
Alan: Well, actually…….you own it. I gave it to you as a wedding gift
Monica: It must had cost a fortune
Alan: Well, we have a lot of money
Edward: You are a very wealthy women, Monica
Monica looks a bit confused at all new things she learns about herself and the house

As Emily shows Monica around the house while Lila talks to Alan
Lila: Poor girl, she looked so confused, this will be a lot for her to deal with, to learn about herself and this family. She must be exhausted.
Alan: Yes, I think it will be best if she went to bed and rested for a while
Lila: I have made up the guestroom for you, so Monica can take your bedroom
Alan: Mother….
Lila: Listen to me, dear. I don't think it's a very good idea for you to share bedroom just yet. She has enough to deal with right now as it is. You are like a stranger to her right now so I don't think you should pressure her into sharing bedroom with you, just yet
Alan: Off course you are right. I just didn't think about it that way. It is so hard for me to believe that she can't remember me, and I almost forget it sometimes.

When Monica and Emily is back from their tour around the house, Alan helps her upstairs to the bedroom.

Monica: Is this the guestroom?
Alan: No, this is our bedroom, I'll sleep in the guestroom
Monica: No, I can't kick you out off your own room. I can take the guestroom
Alan: Monica, I want you to have it. Maybe it will trigger your memory easier if you sleep in here
Monica gives him a shy smile
Monica: Ok then, thank you
They both stand opposite each other and neither of them knows what to say. They are both feeling a bit uncomfortable
Alan: Well…uhmmm….I better go downstairs again. Just let me know if you need anything
Monica: Thank you, I'll be fine. I just think I want to take a shower before I go to bed
Alan: Oh, I'll stay and help you then
Monica looks almost shocked
Monica: No, I can do that by myself, thank you
Alan: What if you fall or get dizzy, I want to be here in case you need help
Monica is getting angry
Monica: I'm not about to take my clothes off in front of you
Alan: Come on Monica, it's not like there isn't anything I haven't seen before
Monica: Well, I don't remember
Alan is getting irritated, but tries to joke about it
Alan: Well I haven't forgot, but I'm a doctor and I think I can restrain myself from attacking you if I see you without clothes…… unless you don't want me to restrain myself off course
Monica gets red with embarrassment
Monica: Oh…Get out of here
Alan: Oh no, I will stay right here, in case something happens and you need help
Monica sighs deeply and rolls her eyes
Monica: Ok then, but could you at least turn around so I can get in the shower
Alan: Ok, ok. I promise I wont look

Monica feels a bit dizzy while showering and she is not about to admit it, but she is glad that he is right outside in case she needs help.
When she is finished, Alan is sitting on their bed waiting for her.
Alan: Do you feel better
Monica: Yes, but I'm still exhausted. I need something to sleep in
Alan shows her where her clothes are and when she sees all the sexy negligees she blushes
Monica: Do I really sleep in negligees like that?
Alan: (smiling) Well, usually I take them off rather quickly and then you sleep in nothing
Monica gets embarrassed and looks down at the floor and doesn't know what to say
Alan: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you embarrassed……..You can borrow a pair of my pajamas if you like
Monica gives him a grateful look
Monica: Yes, thanks. I would like that

Alan gives her his pajamas and helps her to bed and then leaves her alone. Monica feels exhausted at all the new impressions, but decides to deal with everything the next day and she falls asleep almost immediately. She doesn't notice Alan checking in on her almost every hour and sitting beside her bed almost the whole night. He sneaks out before she wakes up in the morning

As the weeks go by, Monica is still very shy and withdrawn, but she starts to feel more relaxed and she starts to open up more with Lila and Edward. They show her photo albums and tells her about her life with Alan. She starts to feel a bit curious about him and asks Lila to tell her more about him. Both Lila and Edward tells her how much Alan loves her and that he couldn't exist without her. They tell her that even if they fight a lot sometimes, they could never live without each other.
Although Monica still have a hard time believing that this is really her life they are telling her about, she starts to feel more and more intrigued about everything and wants to know more, but at the same time she is getting more and more frustrated about that she still doesn't remember anything

Monica is looking through her closets to see what kind of clothes she usually wears and hoping that something will seem familiar
She tries on one of her sexy negligees and concentrates hard to remember. She stands in front of the mirror deep in thoughts when Alan finds her.
Monica: (startled and embarrassed) I…I just wanted to see what it felt like to have one of these on.
She blushes when she feels the searing touch of his gaze on her
Alan: (in a soft voice) I can tell you what I feel like when I see you in it. I feel like whisking you up in my arms, take you to bed and make love to you all night long like we used to do.
Monica takes a step back
Monica: Alan…..
Alan: I'm sorry……but it's not easy for me either. When I see you like that it brings back all the wonderful memories of us making love. You still look the same and sometimes I almost forget that you don't remember anything about it

Alan is getting more and more frustrated that she still hasn't remembered anything and that she backs away everytime he gets too close. Monica is feeling guilty about the way she treats him but she can't help getting nervous around him

A couple of days later, Monica is alone in the living room when Alan walks in. He stands in the doorway and looks at her and all he can think about is how much he want to hold her in his arms and to kiss her. Monica feels his gaze and fights the urge to run upstairs again. She really tries to think about how this must feel for him and decides to try to open up more to him and tries to be more relaxed, so instead she greets him with a big smile

Monica: Hi
Alan is surprised but happy about her reaction to him and sits down next to her
Alan: Hi, what are you doing?
Monica: I'm looking at wedding pictures
Alan: From our wedding?

Monica just nods her head and suddenly she feels shy again. Alan tries to make her laugh by telling her funny stories from the wedding. He tells her about their second wedding and about how Lila invited everyone to their house afterwards and about the couple that got married in gorilla suits. Monica feels more relaxed as they joke and laugh about it. Suddenly Alan gets serious and just gazes into her eyes, he leans forward to give her a small kiss and when she doesn't move away, he pulls her closer into his arms and kisses her more passionately. Monica panics and pushes him away and jumps up from the sofa

Monica: (almost yelling) No, stop it
Alan: I just wanted to show you how much you mean to me, I want to help you get through this. I just want to hold you in my arms
Monica: Stop pushing me
Alan: I'm sorry, but you have to realize this isn't easy for me either
Monica: (getting angry) You keep saying that, but how do you think that I feel then, I have enough of new things to get used to and to deal with, without you pressuring me.
Alan: How do you think it feels when you back away every time I come close to you, for heavens sake , we have been married for over 20 years and I love you
Monica: Well, I can't help that. I'm the one with amnesia, remember. I don't remember neither our marriage or you, and I'm scared to death that I'll never get my memory back.
Alan: I just want to be able to hold you and comfort you
Monica: I'm not ready for that yet
Alan: When will you be ready then?
Monica: (almost screaming) I don't know! I just need some space and to be left alone sometimes, without everyone hovering over me

Monica rushes out of the house and slams the door behind her. Alan is just on his way to go after her when he gets paged to the hospital
Alan: Damn, I really blew it this time

Later, Alan is standing at the nurses station when Gail sees him
Gail: Alan, how are you? You look like hell
Alan: Thanks, That's exactly how I feel too. Monica and I argued
Gail: Do you want to talk about it?
Alan: Not really
Gail: Well, maybe you should, you will feel better if you talk about it. Come here
They walk to his office
Gail: I know this is tough on you, but I'm here for the both of you if you want to talk
Alan: Ok, I just feel like a big, stupid …..
Gail tries to make him smile
Gail: (smiling) Well, you are big. Come on, let me see that gorgeous smile Monica always said she couldn't resist.
Alan: Did she say that?
Gail: She often said that she melted completely every time you smiled at her
Alan is flattered and a small smile creeps up on his face
Alan: (with a satisfied grin) Do you two often talk about me?
Gail: Sometimes we do….Don't try to change the subject…. So what did you two quarrel about?
Alan: She said that I'm pushing her
Gail: Are you?
Alan sighs
Alan: Well, I guess I was. It's just killing me to not be able to have her in my arms and kiss her, I need her so much.
Gail: I know you do, but right now she need her space to deal with all this, you have to give her time, you must remember that you are like a stranger to her
Alan: I know, I just……… I even get angry at her sometimes for not remembering how much we love eachother. I know I have to wait and take it easy, but it's not easy when I look at her and when I have her close to me, all I want to do is reach out and touch her and take her in my arms and never let her go, but whenever I try to reach out she just backs away
I have tried everything, I have tried to leave her alone to take it at her own pace, but as soon as I get close she says I'm pushy…… and I call myself a doctor…I can't even do this right
Gail: You are not speaking like a doctor now, you are speaking like a husband who loves his wife and I do understand how difficult it must be for you. Just try to take it easy, don't scare her away from you.
Alan: Do you have any suggestions about what I should do?
Gail: You could court her, take it slow, let her get to know you again, go out on dates, win her back all over again. Try to make her smile and to relax around you
Alan doesn't say anything for a couple of minutes
Alan: Ok, I'll try to do that

Meanwhile Monica has been walking around in the garden, trying to sort her feelings out. She is feeling a bit stupid for reacting the way she had just for a small kiss
When Alan gets home, Monica is waiting for him
Monica: Alan, I waited for you, you were gone when I came back from my walk. I'm sorry
Alan: No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you the way I did, I just got carried away and I wasn't thinking. I will try to take it easy and not rush you into anything
Monica: I promise to try and not overreact to everything and to try and relax more
Alan takes her hand
Alan: Friends?
Monica smiles at him
Monica: Friends
Alan: Come here Monica.
He chuckled a little while he pulled her down so she laid with her head in his lap and her feet on the arm of the couch. He began stroking her hair lightly. It felt so good.
Monica: Alan, what are you doing?
Alan: Just trying to make my friend feel better. Are you comfortable?
Monica relaxed and smiled
Monica: Yes, very

Later that evening when Monica is going to bed, she opens the bedroom door and the whole bedroom is filled with roses and on the bed there is a small teddybear with a heart on his belly which says "I wanna be your teddybear".
Monica: Oh, he is adorable
Alan walks in behind her through the door and surprises her
Alan: Me or the teddybear?
Monica giggles and blushes. A warm feeling spreads through her body at the sound of his voice
Monica: Both, I think. Thank you so much, this was soo sweet of you
Alan: I would do anything to make you smile. You mean everything to me
Monica gets embarrassed and doesn't know what to say.
Alan: Well, I'll leave you and the teddybear alone to sleep. Goodnight and sweet dreams
Monica: (smiling) Goodnight

Monica found herself almost wishing he would have given her a hug and for the first night she didn't have nightmares about the accident, instead she dreams a strange dream about the teddy bear who suddenly turned into a much bigger teddy bear who looked suspiciously much like Alan.

The next day, Gail stops by for a visit and Monica finds it very easy to talk to her. They talk for several hours and Monica tells her how afraid she is that her memory won't come back, and how insecure she feels around Alan. She even admits that she finds him very attractive, but she is to shy to show it. Gail tells her to try to relax and get to know him and she says that Alan loves her more than anything, and that he would do anything for her.
Gail also tells her what Bobbie told her about what happened before the accident. That she was out to buy a negligee
Monica: I know, I saw it, I can't believe I would wear something as sexy as that
Gail: (smiles) Well, you always said you loved to wear things like that for Alan.
Monica giggles nervously
Monica: So I guess now everyone knows what I had in mind the evening of the accident
Gail: (smiles) No, only Bobbie, me and Alan off course
Monica doesn't say anything and changes the subject
Monica: I had a dream last night about Alan
Gail: You had?
Monica: (Smiles) Yes, he looked like a teddybear….
She abruptly stopped and got a puzzled look on her face
Gail: Monica! What is it?
Monica: I… I don't know, I just saw something…
Gail: What?
Monica doesn't say anything for about a minute. Then she turns to Gail
Monica: Gail…..I know this may sound silly, but has Alan ever been dressed as a lion?
Gail just looks at her with a big smile
Gail: As a matter of fact he has. He was dressed as a lion at the Nurses Ball a couple of years ago. How did you…
Monica: I think I just remembered something, I was thinking about the dream I had and I just saw him before me dressed as a lion. I don't know where that came from…
Gail: Oh Monica, that is great news. I'm so happy for you. I'm sure that now you will have some more flashbacks now and then.
Monica is smiling happily
Monica: Oh Gail, I have waited so long to remember anything. I was almost giving up hope.
Gail: I know Alan will be so happy to hear this
Monica: Gail, please don't tell him, not yet
Gail: Why not?
Monica: I just don't want him to get his hopes up too much. I want to wait until I remember more. I think that if I try not to focus too much on regaining my memory, it will come back faster.
Gail: Ok, I understand, but will you at least tell me if you have another flashback?
Monica: Off course I will

That evening they bumped into eachother in their bedroom. Alan did just come out from the shower only wearing a towel and was on his way to the guestroom. Monica doesn't know where to look. She is extremely aware of his bare chest and gets all shaky when he comes near her. He puts his hand on her arm
Alan: Do you want a good night kiss?
Monica: (almost hypnotized by his eyes) I…
She felt the warmth of his fingers seep through the thin shirt, causing her to tremble with unexpected pleasure. Alan slowly leans forward and gives her a kiss on the forehead. He feels that she is shaking Monica closes her eyes
Alan: You are shaking, are you cold or are you afraid?
Monica just shakes her head
Alan: Monica!
Alan gives her a searching look, she can't take her eyes from his mouth.
With one hand under her chin he kisses her again but this time on her lips. A tender and loving kiss. Monica feels her knees getting weak and she lets out a quiet moan.
Alan is almost shaking from trying to control his emotions and reluctantly finishes the kiss.
Alan: (in a breathless voice) I better stop, while I still can control myself
Monica feels so confused, she can't speak. Alan caresses her cheek
Alan: (softly) Good night, my darling
Monica: Good night

Alan walks back to the guestroom and shuts the door. Monica sits down on the bed and closes her eyes. She is shaking
Monica: What's the matter with me? If I react like this to one small kiss, how would it be to do more than just kiss……….. it must be heavenly.
She can't stop thinking off his kiss, but finally falls asleep. She dreams about him and sleeps restlessly.
Alan can't sleep either and he is very aware that she is sleeping just across the hall. He can't stop thinking about how she felt against him, how it felt to have her in his arms again and to kiss her. He finally falls asleep.

Almost every day Alan buys her flowers and small presents. He takes her out to dinner, to the Theater and to the Opera and eventually Monica is starting to feel more relaxed around him and even starts to tease him back when he teases her. Although Alan wants nothing more then to take her in his arms and kiss her passionately, he takes it slow and jokes a lot with her to make her relax around him. Now and then she also finds a new teddybear on her bed and each time it's a slightly bigger one then the one before.

Monica is feeling a bit tired of just being around the house all day without anything to do
Alan: Would you like to help out at the hospital?
Monica: Do you mean it, could I do that?
Alan: Off course you could, that way I could keep an eye on you
Monica gets a bit irritated
Monica: Do you think I need looking after?
Alan: No, off course not… It's just that when I'm not with you, I worry about you and I want to be close to you, and by being at the hospital maybe something there will trigger your memory.
Monica: Sounds fine, I would love that. I'm going crazy walking around in this house all day long without anything to do.
Alan: I will check with Amy if you could help her at the nurses station
Monica: (smiling) Great
He lovingly ran the back of his hand down along her jaw and Monica felt a tingle run through her body when he looked at her
Alan: Have I ever told you what a beautiful smile you have?
Monica: (smiles teasingly) I don't know
They both laugh

A couple of days later when Monica is trying to help Amy at the nurses station, Alan leaves a message for her to meet him at his office. When she gets there he gives her another teddybear

Monica: (laughing) What am I going to do with all these teddy bears
Alan: I thought that when you get the biggest one and there aren't any bigger to buy, you can have me as a teddy bear instead and hug me all night

Monica blushes as she has been dreaming about Alan when she was hugging the bear

Monica: So you thought that I should get used to bigger and bigger bears so that the transition to you wouldn't be so big. Sounds like you have planned this very thoroughly
Alan: (with a sheepish grin) That was my plan

Monica laughs and touches his cheek
Monica: You are awfully cute
Alan rolls his eyes
Alan: Cute! CUTE! Here I was thinking you would finally admit that you think I'm devastatingly handsome and gorgeous, and you say I'm cute
He sighs and shakes his head while Monica is laughing even harder
Alan: I don't know if I ever will get over this, if this gets out at the hospital, I'm dead. They will never take me seriously again
Monica can't stop laughing.
Monica: Alan…..I'm sorry, you are very handsome , but you are also very cute, sort of like a big Teddy Bear
Alan: AHA! You admit that I'm handsome..I always thought that I was an Bengal Tiger
Monica giggles
Monica: A Bengal Tiger?
Alan pretended to be hurt
Alan: That's just the reaction you've always had when I said that. Please don't say anything about that……Teddy Bear thing at the hospital
Monica: Don't worry, I promise that as long as you behave I won't say anything
Alan: Oh No, do I have to behave, do you know how hard that is for me?

Monica walked up to him and gave him a spontaneous hug

Monica: (In a soft voice) Oh Alan you are so full of fun

She pulled her face away from his shoulder and looked into his dark eyes. Alan suddenly became serious and he could hardly speak and he whispered.

Alan: So are you, we have often had fun together like this

He couldn't take his eyes from her, she looked so lovely, she giggled, her eyes were sparkling, she was blushing and he wanted to kiss her so badly he could almost taste her. His eyes fell to her lips, No, he thought. He wouldn't risk their friendship for the sake of a kiss.
Because it wouldn't be a small,light kiss. He wanted to taste her lips, kiss her with all the passion he felt for her. But a kiss like that could destroy their friendship and scare her away again and he wasn't sure she was ready to take their friendship to a new level yet. So he tried to pull himself together and gave her a small kiss on her cheek instead.

Later Alan comes up behind her and whispers in her ear

Alan: Do you know that I have this annoying little habit …every time I see your earlobe,I want to nibble on it
Monica: I don't believe you
Alan: Just wait and see
She quickly turns around just in time to see him open his mouth to nibble, he quickly shuts his mouth again, looking innocent
Monica tries to keep a straight face but bursts out laughing at his innocent look
Monica: Whew! That was close. Do you have any more habits, I should know about?
Alan: I snore
Monica: (giggles) No, you don't
Alan: How did you know that
Monica looks a bit puzzled
Monica: I don't know…….I just knew. I didn't think about what I was answering, I just said that without thinking
Alan: I'm glad, maybe that means that you will start to remember more eventually
Monica doesn't say anything about the small flashback she had a couple of weeks ago and she just smiles at him. Alan gets paged and has to hurry away

Later when Alan teases her at the Nurses Station. Monica mouths "Cutie" to him and he immediately hushes her
Monica: I warned you
Alan: Think of my reputation. I'm sorry I forgot I promised to behave, but it is so fun teasing you, I just couldn't help myself
Monica shakes her head and giggles
Monica: You are bad
Alan: You wouldn't want it to get out at the hospital that the Chief of staff is a softie, would you?
Monica: Oh no, that would be awful, we can't have that, so the only thing for you to do is to behave and I'll keep our secret.
Alan gives her butt a small pinch and startles Monica with the sudden intimacy and she doesn't quite know how to react
Alan: Good girl, I knew I could count on you
Before she has the chance to respond he walks away with a big smile on his face.

Monica is working at the nurses station when suddenly she feels another pinch and something tickles her neck
"Hello, Monica," Alan said, with a low and husky, intimate voice. The tone he used made Monica's insides melt like butter. "Whachadoin'?" he asked, his dark brown eyes sparkling with laughter.
Monica: I thought you promised to behave
Alan: It wasn't me
He shows her the teddybear behind his back
Alan: It was him
Monica: He is a bad bear
Alan: Yeah, he says that he can't wait to go home and go to bed with you
Monica tries not to laugh at him as she takes the bear from him
Monica: (teasingly to the bear) Off course you will be in my bed my little darling
Alan: (with a deep sigh) That is one lucky bear. Since the bear will spend the whole night with you, I was thinking that maybe you would like to go out to dinner and spend the evening with me?
Smiling and suddenly shy, she whispered
Monica: I would love to

Monica was so excited about the evening with Alan, she couldn't wait to get home and get ready for their dinner date. As soon as Alan came home, he saw Monica walking down the stairs and his mouth went dry at the sight of her, admiring the way her dress flowed with every movement.
She looked gorgeous and radiant in a deep blue dress that clung to her every curve. The dress, alluring and tempting, brought forbidden images of stripping it away. Alan's dark eyes scanned the length of her as his imagination went into overdrive. Monica could hardly breath when she saw the look in his eyes. A part of her wanted to run upstairs and put on a less revealing dress, but another part of her wanted to further explore the feelings he awoke in her and wanted to rush into his arms, If only he knew what he did to her senses.

Monica: Hello, Alan, she said softly, in a low, sweet voice
Alan could hardly speak, but he managed to croak
Alan: Monica, you look absolutely gorgeous
Monica blushed at his compliment
Monica: Thank you

He took her hand and helped her into the limousine that was waiting for them. She noticed that he didn't let go of her hand, instead he let it rest in hers. Her whole being was focused on his warm hand now resting against her leg, teasing her senses. "I wonder what he's thinking right now? His hand is driving me absolutely wild… I almost wish he would do something with it."

His eyes traveled up and down her legs. "I wonder what she's thinking right now? I wonder if she minds me leaving my hand there. Then again, if she did mind she would have pulled away by now. I'm afraid if I leave it there any longer… he nervously ran his fingers through his hair, sighed and slipped his hand from hers.
Although there was plenty of space in the back seat, they were sitting quite close to one another on the way to the restaurant, both quiet and lost in their own thoughts

They have a very romantic dinner and when Monica is on her way back to the table from the ladies room, she stops and gazes at Alan at the table, she can't help staring as she thinks to herself "Am I really married to this incredibly sexy man" As soon as she stops several men comes up to her and starts talking to her.

A few moments later, Alan noticed the commotion and turned to see Monica surrounded by a group of men, all trying to get her attention in one way or another. His stomach knotted up involuntarily. As she approached, he tried to hide his jealousy with a small smile, but she saw right through him.

Monica: What's the matter with the men here? I've been hit on by more men in one evening than I have in the last six months.
She shook her head in disbelief, hiding her satisfaction at Alan's obvious jealousy.
Alan: Well, Monica… you are a vision tonight. You look incredibly… sexy… in that dress. Um, would you like to dance?
Monica: I'd love to

He held her tightly against him as they danced. "Holding her feels so good. She looks ravishing tonight. She looks ravishing in everything. I wonder what she has on under that dress… oh, you damn fool, why did you have to think of that? You're holding her too close… she'll notice... Alan pulled back slightly and coughed. The moment she looked up in his eyes, he knew that she had noticed. She smiled to herself when they got back to the table. Alan didn't dare to dance more with her and they spent the rest of the evening drinking champagne and talking.

On the way home in the limousine she falls asleep with Alan's arm around her. She nuzzles and buries her face in his chest with a satisfied sigh. Alan carries her out of the car and up to the bedroom. He undresses her and puts her to bed without her waking up. The next morning she remembers their dinner and dance but she doesn't remember how she got into bed.
When she understands that Alan undressed her and put her to bed, she gets embarrassed at first but also gets a bit excited at the thought of him seeing her almost naked and the thought of his hands on her body. She thinks it feels strange to know that he already has seen her naked and that they have made love hundreds of times when she can't remember any of it.
She decides not to mention anything about it to Alan

Later that day, Lila finds her looking in a photoalbum, she is looking at a picture of Alan and she is caressing it
Lila: You are attracted to him aren't you, dear?
Monica almost looks guilty
Lila: That picture has always been your favorite
Monica: It's a great picture and he is a wonderful man
Lila takes her hand
Lila: I'm glad you feel like that about him. Don't worry, dear. Your memory will come back. soon, I'm sure of it
Monica: Thank you, Lila. I sure hope it will come back soon, I know how hard this is on Alan too.

That night after thinking they had finally stopped, Monicas nightmares comes back and she wakes up screaming, she runs into the guestroom and throws herself into Alan's arms. She is so afraid she is trembling.
Alan: Monica! What is it? Did you have a nightmare?
Monica: I don't want to talk about it, please just hold me!
Alan comforts her and holds her tight and finally Monica falls asleep again in his arms.
He doesn't want to wake her so he lets her sleep in his bed. It takes a long time before Alan falls asleep, he enjoys having her in his arms and he gently caresses her hair until he finally falls asleep too.
The next morning when Monica wakes up, she is still laying in his arms and her hand is resting on his chest. She quickly withdraws her hand and blushes while Alan wakes up with a happy grin on his face.
Alan: Good Morning! Do you feel better? Did you sleep well?
Monica is red with embarrassment and stammers
Monica: Y……Yes…I…I feel much better now
Alan: Have you had these nightmares every night?
Monica nods her head
Monica: I thought they had stopped, I haven't had a nightmare in weeks
Alan: Why didn't you tell me?
Monica: I....I don't know
Alan: I don't want you to wake up afraid and be all alone. If you want to I can sleep in our bedroom from now on just in case you have any more bad dreams. Would you like that?

Monica feels her face turning red again by the thought of sleeping in the same room as him every night
Monica: I don't know……..it would feel better,but…
She hesitates but the thought of waking up alone and afraid after another nightmare scares her
Alan: I promise not to push you into anything. I will just be here in case you need me. I wont touch you unless you want me to. I just want to help you.
Monica sighs in relief and smiles
Monica: Thank you. I would like that
Alan: We don't have to tell anybody that we are sleeping in the same room. It will be our little secret
Monica smiles and nods her head

Later in the day Monica thinks about the night. It felt so right and she had never felt anything more wonderful then to sleep in his arms. The feeling of his cheek against her skin and his strong arms around her made her feel so safe.
Everytime Alan looked at her she blushed as she couldn't stop thinking of the night in his arms.

Every night Alan kept sleeping on his side of the bed and every morning they were always cuddled up close together. Monica can't help but to feel lonely when Alan sneaks back to his room before anyone is awake. Neither of them comments on the fact that they always wakes up close together. Monica feels a bit embarrassed about it, but they both know that they wouldn't want to have it any other way. Every other night she had one of her nightmares, but she still couldn't remember anything from her dreams, she just woke up scared and trembling. Alan was always there to comfort her and she was able to fall asleep again in his arms.

For the first time since Monica's accident, Alan could sleep peacefully. He enjoys to finally be able to hold her in his arms every night. Although he would like to do more than just "sleep", for now he was satisfied with just being close to her. It starts to tear on his self-control when one night he wakes up and hears her softly moaning his name and sneaking her hand under his pajamajacket and buries her face in his neck and with a satisfied sigh she continued to sleep. Alan was aware that she did it in her sleep, but the rest of the night he kept fighting to control his feelings and he was overwhelmed by the desire to kiss her passionately.
"If she had any idea about what I am thinking, she would run screaming out of here" he thought to himself.
Early next morning without being able to sleep due to all the lustful thoughts that kept running through his mind the whole night, Alan sneaks out of the room to take a cold shower, without seeing Lila who noticed him sneaking out of Monica's room. Lila smiles to herself and hurries back to her room before he sees her.

For each day that went by she felt more and more attracted to him. She even found herself daydreaming about him and everyone noticed how Monica's face changed at the mention of Alan's name and her eyes sparkled with happiness when she looked at him

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Alan, Monica, Tony and Bobbie are standing at the nurses station. Everyone is talking but Monica, she has a hard time concentrating on the conversation. Her thoughts and eyes kept drifting away to Alan. She studied his face falling more and more in love with him as the seconds ticked by and in a quiet moment, she looked at his lips and it was obvious to everyone that she was having romantic thoughts about those lips and suddenly her subconsciousness let go of a memory it had stored away very thoroughly. She could literately feel his lips kissing little trails over every inch of her body and she gasped audibly. She couldn't tear her eyes from his lips she heard sounds from the conversation but her brain was far too occupied with the memory she was reliving to make sense of what they said.

My god! Had it really been that good? She knew now exactly when and where the memory was from. Their weddingnight

Everyone looked at Monica, obviously waiting for her to say something
Monica starts to blush
Monica: I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention
Alan had felt the amorous glances she gave him and he couldn't resist teasing her to find out what she was thinking about
Alan: What were you thinking about?
Monica turns even brighter red and mumbles something
Bobbie: (teasingly)I think she was paying attention to Alan
Alan grins broadly
Alan: Excuse us, I think we have to go so that my lovely wife can pay some more attention to me (whispers to Monica) I really need your attention

Alan leads a blushing Monica to his office and shuts the door behind them. He gently takes her in his arms and whispers
Alan: My lips are aching to touch you
Monica feels hypnotized by his eyes as she still is in a daze from the memory of their weddingnight and all she could think about was how much she wanted to be in his arms again and she whispers thickly
Monica: I want to touch you, too
He gives her a slow tender kiss
Alan: I want to stay here with you forever
Monica is so mesmerized by him she is speechless, and instead of backing away she reaches up to meet his lips again wishing the moment would never end. They kissed for several minutes, he held her tight, his hand stroking her hair. They kissed slowly and delightfully, enjoying eachothers tender kisses.

Later Monica is walking around at the hospital with a big smile on her face, she just can't stop smiling and she realizes that she has fallen deeply in love with him. A part of her still feels a bit insecure and she doesn't want him to know about it just yet, not until she remembers more.

Monica doesn't see much of Alan the following week at the hospital and she found herself longing to be alone with him and to feel his kisses again.

A new doctor, Diana Hamilton, has arrived and she was going to be working there until Monica could go back to work. Alan spend a lot of time with her for her first days to show her everything. She was a very beautiful woman and Monica felt more and more frustrated, she didn't like that she was working so close to Alan. She didn't like it at all.
Everytime she saw her she had her hand on Alan's arm and Monica felt like punching her if she touched him again. Finally she couldn't take it anymore and when she saw Diana alone at the Nurses station she approached her
Monica: You better keep your hands from him! He's mine! And if I see you touching him one more time I will see to it that you'll be fired.
Diana looked startled at Monica's outburst and just stammered
Diana: I'm sorry… I didn't mean to…
Monica looked like she was ready to strangle her. Just then Alan is on his way to the Nurses station and he sees Diana hurrying away and Monica's angry face
Alan: What was that all about?
Monica: (startled) Oh, just…..I mean……Uhmm ……I…I just thought she was getting abit to intimate with you, (blushes and looks down to the floor) I mean you are my husband so I just told her that she should keep her distance
Alan: (gives her a searching look) Monica, look at me
He gently puts a finger under her chin, making her look up at him
Monica is still blushing
Alan: (delighted) You are jealous!
Monica: (grumpy) No, I'm not
Alan: Oh, yes, you are. And I love it, and you have absolutely nothing to worry about. No other women can compete with you. How can you think that I would give any other woman a second look when I'm married to the most wonderful woman in the world.
Monica smiles
Monica: What a wonderful thing to say
Alan: It's the truth

Monica reaches up to kiss his cheek, but he turns so that she kisses his mouth instead. He slowly and tenderly kissed her and Monica put her hands on his chest to keep her knees from giving away. With a satisfied sigh she leaned closer and when their kiss ended Monica was breathless and Alan looked like he was in heaven. They just gazed into eachothers eyes
Alan: You are wonderful
Monica smiled
Monica: I think you're pretty terrific too
As Alan walked away to see a patient, she murmured jokingly to herself
Monica:….especially your butt
Without turning around she heard Alan saying with a happy laugh
Alan: I heard that
Monica giggled and admired the sight of him as he walked into the elevator

A couple of days later, Alan has to go away to a medical convention for a couple of days. The family gathers in the hallway and everyone says goodbye to him, Alan gives Monica a kiss on the cheek and she can't help feeling disappointed. Emily sees the look on her face

Emily: Dad, why don't you give her a kiss like the one you gave her before we went to Paris, remember?
Alan: How do you know about that kiss, weren't you outside then
Emily just smiles as Alan turns to Monica
Alan: Ok, maybe this will trigger your memory, come here sweetheart
He gives her a long loving kiss and without her thinking her arms wraps around his neck and pulls him closer to her and she kisses him deeper. When Alan finally breaks the kiss Monica looks like she just woke up from a wonderful dream and both Monica and Emily says at the same time" Wow"
Alan: Bye, baby
Monica: (whispers) Bye
Alan turns around and walks out the door and doesn't see the lovestruck look on Monica's face.

Later that evening when Monica is getting ready to go to bed, the phone rings
Monica: Hello!
Alan: Hi Honey!
Monica closes her eyes, feeling a warmth instantly begin to wash through her body by the sound of his voice
Monica: Hi, how are you?
Alan: I'm fine, but I miss you. I just called to say goodnight
Monica: I miss you too
Alan: I will be home soon. Sleep well my darling
Monica: You too
Alan: Goodnight
Monica: Goodnight
She has a hard time sleeping when he is away, she lays on his side of the bed, hugging his pillow. She wears his pajamas to feel the smell of him. She closed her eyes and sighed deeply as she thought of Alan's mouth on hers, his hands caressing her.
She longed to be in his arms again and to see his sexy smile. She doesn't remember ever wanting something more in her entire life than to have Alan home with her again. They have long talks on the phone every evening and neither one of them wants to hang up the phone to go to bed.

After 5 days Alan is finally coming home. Monica decides to meet him at the airport. She wants to be alone when she welcomes him home. When she sees him approaching, she wonders to herself how she could have gone so long without him. When Alan sees her waiting for him he starts to run to her and she rushes to him and throws herself in his arms. He kisses her and she clings to him and passionately kisses him back. She kisses him with such deep sensuality he felt it to the bottom of his soul
Monica: I have missed you !
Alan: I have missed you too, What a wonderful welcome, maybe I should go away more often
Monica: NO, I don't want you to go away ever again .

For the past couple of weeks all she could think of was him and the depth of their affection for one another. The next step in their relationship would push her over the edge, they both knew that.

That evening they were both almost nervous about sleeping together as they both knew how much they both longed after eachother. Alan finds his pajamas in her bedroom and feels her perfume on it. He smiles a tender smile as he realizes that she must have slept in his pajamas.
He doesn't say anything as she climbs into bed, he just wraps his arm gently around her and kisses her on the forehead. She feels a bit disappointed but she realizes that he is waiting for her to make the next move.

Alan whispers in her ear
Alan: Goodnight sweetie
Monica relaxes in his arms and slowly drifts off to sleep

Alan's arms went around Monica's waist, drawing her tightly to his body. She felt so good in his arms. She ran her hands through his hair and Alan began planting kisses on her face, her neck, her hair. They were breathing very heavily and Monica moaned softly as Alan kissed her neck. Their lips met and their bodies, pressed so closely together, began to join in the fun the lips were having. Suddenly, nothing mattered to either one of them anymore but that kiss.

Slowly Alan wakes up and reaches for Monica

Alan: Hmm, Monica. You smell so good... Oh, darling...(kisses the top of her hair, cuddling close)

There is no reply. Alan sits up straight and pulls back the sheets. A giant teddy bear occupies Monica's place.

Alan: (to the bear) You... Not a word about this, to anyone.

Alan was so sure that they had made love all night, he could hardly believe it was just a dream

Alan: I can't take this anymore, my imagination is to vivid. He went to take a cold shower but it didn't help much as he kept imagining Monica stepping into the shower to join him.

Monica is more determined then ever to get her memory back, but she hasn't had another flashback for weeks and she starts to worry that she wont remember anything more than those short flashbacks she had. She is feeling more and more frustrated both about the fact that she doesn't remember and also about being so close to Alan while all she wants to do is to throw herself in his arms and bury her face against his neck, to breathe in the scent that was uniquely his and beg him to make love to her.

Alan was sound asleep infront of the TV when Monica found him later that afternoon. She couldn't tear her eyes away from him as he slept. Monica sank down onto the couch next to him, she softly brushed a lock of his hair away from his eyes. Not being able to resist, she laid down next to him and softly kissed his lips and let her fingers brush through his soft hair. His hand went up and around her waist, his eyes still closed. "Monica," he murmured. It felt so natural to lay in his arms and she kissed up his neck with long lingering kisses. He found her lips and kissed her longingly
"Oh, Alan," she sighed
He tenderly cupped her cheek in his palm, caressing her lips with the pad of his thumb. Making sure he wasn't dreaming again, his eyes grew so dark they looked nearly black.
Alan: I don't want to settle for a few kisses tonight. I want you, Monica. I want you so badly I can't think straight anymore

Monica closed her eyes against the feelings raging inside her. If she said yes to Alan she would forever alter their relationship. If she said no, she knew she would always regret it. She loved him, and the strong feelings coming from her heart told her this was right. Taking his hand, she silently led him down the hallway to their bedroom. Alan unbuttoned his shirt and shrugged out of it, all the while watching Monica. She crossed the room and stood before her vanity mirror. Her hands shook as she removed her earrings and laid them on the table.

Alan came up behind her, running his hands up and down her arms. He caught her gaze in the mirror. He gently begins to kiss her neck
Alan: It has been so long, I miss you like crazy
Monica is so nervous she is shaking
Alan: Trust me, darling
Monica: I do
Alan: You mean everything to me
Monica reached up to his lips and they shared a long, deep, sensual kiss
Monica: I love your kisses, Oh Alan I love you
Alan: (with tears in his eyes) Oh, Monica you have no idea how happy it makes me feel to hear you say that to me again.
Monica: I didn't think it was possible to feel like this
Alan: And this is just the beginning
While kissing her, he repeatedly mumbled "I love you" between the kisses

She begins to slowly caress his chest and she gets more and more bold as she is placing small kisses all over him, getting to know his body all over again, his taste, the way he feels. They kiss passionately as Alan unbuttons her blouse. Love and adoration shines from his eyes as he slowly and tenderly makes love to his wife and soon Monica was lost in exquisite ecstasy. Already stretched to the breaking point by hours of sensual torment, Monica cries out
Monica: Oh Alan……..please
Alan: Oh Monica, my darling
Monica's fingers delve deep into his thick hair, gasping for breath as they continue to enjoy eachother

Monica felt lazy and content. Her legs were entwined with Alan's and her head rested in the cradle of his arm and shoulder and she heard an incredibly satisfied sigh close to her ear.

He gazed down at her. She smiled up at him, a sweet, lazy smile. Her hair was everywhere, her face was flushed, she'd never been more beautiful he thought to himself
Lowering his head, he kissed her slowly and deeply. When he looked at her again her eyes were glazed, her lips swollen

Alan: That was incredible
Monica: No, YOU were incredible.
Alan smiles and kisses her softly.
Alan: Thank you
Monica: For what?
Alan: For making me wait for you. You made me realize that I can't always get what I want when I want it. And I don't think our first time, would have been so perfect if we hadn't waited. And we will have many more nights like this, that I can promise you.
Monica: Are we always this passionate? Is it always this amazing?
Alan: Oh yes it is, that's why we never have been able to keep our hands from eachother for very long

They were quiet for several moments before Monica broke the silence.
Monica: Alan, What if I never regain my memory
Alan: (looks deep into her eyes) It doesn't change the way I feel about you
Monica: (in a loving, tender voice) It doesn't change the way I feel for you either, I Love You so much. I can't imagine living without you
Alan: I can't live without you either, I love you so much, my darling
He kisses her tenderly
Monica: When I woke up and saw you at the hospital, I thought you were the most attractive and beautiful man I have ever seen, and now I know that you are also the sexiest and most amazing lover in the world.
Monica nuzzled his neck and whispered
Monica: Care to see if we can do it again?
Alan gasped and raised his head to look at her.
Alan: Again? (teasingly) Did you like it that much ?
She nodded as a naughty gleam lit her eyes.
Monica: Yeah. Are you up for it?
Alan: You know I can't resist you. I suppose now that I showed you how wonderful it is between us, I have no other choice then to show you again and again…and again. You have always liked it ……a lot
Monica doesn't respond, she just smiles and begins kissing him again.

Later that night Alan and Monica are still in bed enjoying to be in eachothers arms. Monica is slowly caressing his chest when she suddenly notices the rings in the chain around his neck, she takes them in her hand and suddenly she has a clear memory of Alan putting the rings on her finger on their weddingday. She gasps in surprise
Alan: What's the matter?
Monica: My rings…I remember when you put them on my finger
Alan: Monica! That is wonderful! Do you remember anything else
Monica: No, not right now. I could see it soo clear… I have had short flashbacks before but I didn't wanted to say anything before until I had a longer flashback that had more meaning to it.
Alan: I can understand that
He took the rings from the chain and took her hand
Alan: I kept these for you until you were ready to wear them again
Monica: (with tears in her eyes) Oh Alan
Alan: I love you with all my heart and these rings should be where they belong: Will you be my wife again?
Monica: I always have been and I always will be
Alan gently puts the rings back on her finger and kisses it. Monica takes his face in her hands and kisses him tenderly

Alan: You're not worried about your memory, are you? I mean that you only had short flashbacks
Monica: No, right now I'm just so excited about being married to the most attractive man in the world.
Alan: I love you soo much
Monica: I love you, my darling
They slowly drifts off to sleep in eachothers tight embrace

Alan began to slowly wake up. He lay there, eyes still closed, with a little smile on his lips. His arms discovered that they weren't holding her any longer and began to wander. Finding her again, he embraced her, pulling her tightly to him so that they lay face to face. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked at her. His face came closer to hers. He kissed her forehead lightly, then the tip of her nose and last he kissed her lips. He broke off the kiss and looked at her again.
Smiling, she touched the dark stubble on his jaw. "Good morning," she murmured.

Alan: You look like a woman who's been well and truly loved
Tumbling onto her back, she stretched lazily.
Monica: Ummm, I feel like it
Alan: We have made love so many times I probably need a wheelchair to get downstairs
Monica: Oh my poor baby, are you complaining
Alan: No, not at all
Monica: Good, cause you haven't seen anything yet, babe
Alan falls back on the pillows with a deep sigh
Alan: Oh my god, I have created a monster
Monica jumps on top of him and purrs
Monica: And this monster is hungry
Alan: We better get downstairs then, before someone misses us and comes upstairs
Monica bursts out in a happy giggle as she looks around the room. The whole room is a mess with clothes scattered around everywhere on the floor.
Monica: They would be shocked if they saw this.

As they walked into the livingroom with a happy laughter everyone turned to look at Monica. She had a look about her that they had never seen before, she glowed from within and she had a new softness about her. She was gently smiling and her eyes shined

Lila knew immediately what had happened and turned to Alan
Lila: I'm so glad, I saw the way she looked at you and I knew it wouldn't be long before she told you how she felt I'm so happy for you both
Alan: Thank you mother, so are we

A couple of hours later Monica comes down the stairs in a white, low-cut, tight top and jeans that reveals her every curve, with her blonde, silky hair flowing down her shoulders. Alan can't take his eyes from her

Alan: Wow! You take my breath away. It's been a long time since I've seen you in such revealing clothes.
Monica: I think that we should dress more casual in our free time, so I bought something for you too, it's upstairs on our bed, why don't you run upstairs and change and I'll wait for you down here.
Alan: It's a date

A few minutes later Alan comes down in a black jeansshirt and black jeans

Monica: That's much better
She unbuttons his shirt a bit
Alan: What are you doing?
Monica: I just want too see more of your sexy chest, you are a very sexy man so why not showing it………..at least to me

She smiles broadly at him
Monica: (in a humorous tone) Come on babe !
She starts to walk out the door while seductively swaying her hips. Suddenly she feels a pinch
Monica: What was that for ?
Alan: I just suddenly had this irresistible urge to pinch your cute little butt
Monica giggles
Alan: Where are we going?
Monica: I thought it would be fun to take a walk in the park and just relax and have fun

Alan can't take his eyes off her
Monica: Alan, you're staring
Alan: (sighs) I know (looks at her revealing top) I can't help staring at certain ………uhmm…. outstanding parts of you. You dressed like that on purpose, didn't you? You wouldn't have dressed like that if you didn't want me to look at you and do this …
He draw her close to him, wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her and she responded passionately
Alan: Oh god, what are you doing to me, you drive me crazy
Monica: Good, now you know exactly what you do to me too. Can you behave yourself long enough for us to be able to get to the park?
Alan: Does that mean I have to keep my hands to myself?
Monica: Yes
Alan: I can't promise anything, you're awfully inviting

They walk around in the park with their arms around eachother and Alan can't help caressing her waist seductively

Monica: (giggling) Alan! Behave we are in a public place…………
She caresses him with her eyes
Monica: But I must say that you look extremely delicious in jeans, I wouldn't mind tasting a bit of you
Alan: (moans) Monica! You shouldn't say things like that, when I can't do anything about it
Monica: (in a flirting voice) Poor Alan, all turned on and nowhere to go. You would like to kiss me now, wouldn't you?
Alan watches her mouth with all the intensity of a starving man.
Alan: Uh huh
Monica: So, what is taking you so long (she sneaks up close to him) You know, I would do anything to taste your delicious lips
Alan grabs her and kisses her
Monica: Uhmmmmm, that was delicious!
Alan: Would you like a ice-cream?
Monica: I'd love to

They sit down on a parkbench and Alan eats his ice-cream very quickly
Monica: (laughs)That was quick
Alan: I'm a big man, I need my energy
Monica: Oh, for what?
Alan: (with a sexy grin) I'll show you…………….later
Monica: Would you like to taste mine too?
Alan: (mischievously) I'd love to

He pulls her close and gives her a long kiss and feels the taste of the ice-cream in her mouth he pulls her against him to deepen the kiss even more.

Alan: Uhmmm, strawberry and vanilla, Yummy

They share the rest of the ice-cream, not taking their eyes off eachother
Alan: I'm still hungry
Monica: (giggles) Oh Alan, you are insatiable

She leans towards him and kisses him again. Alan slowly slides his hands down her back and caresses her hips. She lets out a moan and caresses his neck. Their kiss turns more and more passionate. With a low growl, he pulls her tight to him so she could plainly feel his arousal.

Alan forces himself to stop
Alan: We better stop before we get arrested. I want you, Monica. Now.
Monica: Oh Alan! Don't do this to me
Alan: Do what (laughs), I'm not doing anything right now!
Monica: No, but it is enough that you look at me in that lecherous way to get me excited

They looked at each other and without words they realized what they both wanted. They held each others hand as they returned home to do a thing that they very much enjoyed doing.

The next day, Monica is at the Nurses Station feeling bored. She is flipping through some old magazines and tries to read some medical articles to see if something will seem familiar. She nearly gives up hope when she sees the picture of the man who wrote the article she was reading. He seems familiar and she tries to find the name of the man in the article. It's Pierce Dorman. Suddenly she feels her hands shaking and she feels nauseous and she goes to Alan's office to lie down for a bit. When she reaches the sofa she feels like her head is about to explode and all she can see is the picture of that man.
Monica: Who is he?
She closes her eyes but she still feels nauseous. The picture of the man is still spinning around in her head and suddenly she sees the same man pushing her up against a car in the parking garage and Alan comes to rescue her and then someone is pointing a gun at the man. She gasps when she realizes that it's her that is holding the gun, then suddenly she sees him lying dead on the floor and she is just standing there looking at him.
Monica is getting scared and she feels like she is drowning when suddenly the flashback stopped and she couldn't remember anything more
Monica: Oh my god! What happened? Did I kill that man?
Her hands are still shaking and tears are running down her cheeks from fear. She pages Alan

Alan: Hello!
Monica: Alan, I need you, can you please come quick. I'm in your office
Alan is getting very worried by the tone in her voice
Alan: What has happened?
Monica: Just come here, please
Alan: I will be right there

Alan arrived a couple of minutes later. As soon as he walked into his office, Monica rushed into his open arms. Her eyes were puffy from crying and her body trembled with fear.
Alan: Darling, what has happened?
Monica: I was having a flashback. I was reading a article and the face of the author seemed familiar and when I came in here I got these frightening pictures in my head where I was pointing a gun at him and then he was dead
Alan: Oh my god
Monica is looking up at him
Monica: Is it true? Did I kill a man?
Alan: No, no off course not. You didn't kill him. He was an awful man and he deserved to be killed, but you didn't do it. There is nothing to be afraid of, he is gone and he can never hurt you again

Alan tells her about Dorman and what happened between them and Monica is getting angry

Monica: Why the hell didn't you tell me earlier?
Alan: I didn't want to upset you
Monica: It was more upsetting to find out this way. You could at least have prepared me
Alan: I know and I'm sorry. I just didn't know how to tell you without upsetting you too much. I was afraid that if I told you about it you would get so scared that your memory wouldn't return at all
Monica is slowly calming down.
Monica: I guess you're right, but I still wished you would have told me

Monica burrowed closer into the warmth and support of his muscular chest and Alan stroked her hair
Alan: (whispering) Everything will be fine, sweetheart. I will always be here for you, I will never let anything happen to you.

Alan drives her home. He doesn't want to leave her but he has to go back to work that night. Edward and Lila are home and he tells them what happened and asks them to take care of her
Alan hugs her tightly
Alan: Are you sure you are ok now?
Monica: I'm fine. Don't worry about me. I am just soo tired and I have awful headache. I think I will go to bed.
Alan: Ok, sleep well darling and try not to think to much about that flashback you had
Monica: I'll try

Monica sleeps restlessly and keeps tossing and turning all night. Suddenly she wakes up and sits up straight. The first seconds she doesn't know what woke her up, but as she clears her head she realizes that she can finally remember everything from her past and even what happened right before the accident. Monica is so happy she jumps out of bed and hurries to the hospital and Alan.

At the nurses station:
Alan is standing at the nurses station looking through some papers , when Monica approaches, Diana Hamilton is there. Monica just looks at he,r raises an eyebrow, and Diana hurries away

Monica: (In a snarky tone) You really do need me to keep you in line, don't you? As soon as I turn my back, you are surrounded by women.
Alan: I love the way you can make people scared with just one look.
Monica: I think I'd like to keep it that way.
Alan: As long as you decide to keep me
Monica: Just you try to have it any other way
She starts to play with his tie and leans forward and nibbles his ear
Monica: I need to be alone with you, Sweetie
Alan: (smiling) I think I can arrange that
He takes her hand and they go to his office
Monica shuts the door behind them and turns around to Alan
Monica: I think I have something to make up to you for
Alan: What's that
Monica: The day I had the accident I promised you that you would have fun that night, remember?
Alan: Oh, yes I remember….but how did you…
Monica just smiles with tears in her eyes. Alan hugs her tight
Monica: I remember everything …
Alan: Oh my darling Monica, this is fantastic
Monica: I had nightmares all night and when I woke up I suddenly remembered everything
Alan: I'm so glad, but I hope this doesn't mean that you will stop having a crush on me?
Monica: Off course not, I'm still hopelessly in love with you. In fact, I have a very hard time keeping my hands off you right now
Alan: (smiling broadly) And I love having your hands on me, I'm all yours

Monica smiles and hugs him tightly and buries her face in his chest . They hold eachother tight for a long time, enjoying the feeling of eachother. Alan holds up her face so he can look at her, he has tears in his eyes

Alan: I love you so much
Monica: (against his lips) I love you too, so very, very much
Alan: You have no idea how happy you've made me
Monica: (seductively) I'd like to make you a whole lot happier
Alan: Oh, really? You know that everytime I saw you my imagination went into overdrive. I kept fantasizing about you in all sorts of compromising situations. If you had only known about the erotic fantasies I had about you, you would have run screaming out of here
Monica: Why don't you tell me about those fantasies and I promise I wont run out of here
Alan: I think we should save that for tonight. Why don't you show me what you had in mind when you said you wanted to make me even happier.
Monica gave him a seductive smile, she slid her knee between his legs and pressed her mouth hungrily to his, kissing him passionately

Monica: (with a sexy voice) Don't tell anyone, but I want to rip your clothes off Doctor
Alan: (teasingly) You are just after my body!
Monica slides her hand down his back and pinches his rear
Monica: Mmmmm and what a great body it is !
Alan: You can't get enough of me, can you?
Monica: I can never get enough of you, never. I think I'm getting addicted to you
Alan turns around to quickly lock the door
Alan: (laughs teasingly) Monica Quartermaine what am I going to do with you?
Monica: You know exactly what to do with me
Alan smiles teasingly, but doesn't move
Monica: Come here, Tiger
Alan: I don't know if I dare, what if you try to take advantage of a poor defenseless man like me
Monica: (teasingly) Ohh, Come on. I won't bite………well, at least not much
Alan pretends to look afraid
Monica: Ok then I'll come to you
She slowly walks towards him while starting to unbutton her coat
Monica: I'm beginning to feel very warm . I think I have too much clothes on
She opens her coat and Alan gasps in surprise as she has nothing on but a black boistiee under it. Alan's mouth begins to water
Alan: (in a excited voice) Oh, you naughty girl
Monica: (giggles) I'm going to make your every fantasy come true
Alan grabs her by the waist and pulls her close to him
Alan: You already have. Monica takes his tie off and starts unbuttoning his shirt, but she becomes so filled with lust, she rips his shirt open. The buttons break off. Monica giggles
Monica: Sorry
Alan: It was an old shirt anyway.
She looks at him with pure desire in her eyes. Alan sweeps her coat off so he can admire his beautiful wife.
Alan: You are so beautiful
Monica gives him a deep, hungry kiss as he caresses her hips. He whisks her up in his arms and carries her to the couch, he lays her down and just looks at her with love and desire in his eyes. Monica pulls him on top of her and Alan buries his face in her neck and kisses her gently
Monica: Oh, Alan, you feel so good
He grinned and huskily whispered in her ear
Alan : Are you hungry darling?
Monica: Yes…oh yes, she whispered.

She kissed him with all the love and devotion in her soul. And when Alan kissed her back, his kiss held a new, deeper intimacy that welcomed her back and promised a new future for both of them. Their embrace was feverish and intense, and soon they were both trying to repress their moans.